And a 2 and a 3
2 What’s something good that happened today, no matter how small? (03/01/2023)
I ate my first MRE in almost 5 months. We have these large containers to store stuff transient personnel and in one of the containers, there were boxes of MREs which were most likely expired. My friend Olivas was playing with the idea of eating open some MREs. I was like fuck it, why not do it. They have been sitting there for years and nobody has come to claim them. Worst case scenario somebody comes back for them, we had to throw them away because they were expired and we needed more space. We took one box of MREs and ripped it open.
I took out the Vegetable crumble menu MRE because the vegetarian MREs while lacking in the main course department, they have a good selection of snacks especially in the form of cocoa protein powder and the first strike bar in the flavors of apple-cinnamon, chocolate, and cranberry (the worst). I got the apple-cinnamon bar and opened it. I smelled the bar and it smelled tangy like ramen. I bit into it and it tasted salty which isn’t reminiscent of the sweet apple-cinnamon bar I ate in basic training. These MREs were definitely expired and I wasn’t risking upsetting my stomach and throwing up. My friend, Olivas, however ate the beef stew meal like it was nothing (for some reason it didn’t expire or he touhgened out the expired taste).
Even though the MREs were expired, I am still glad that I got to do something random and fun which is eating expired MREs and almost throwing up.
3 What’re five things that make you happy? (03/01/2023)
1) The people I care about deeply: My little brother, my older sister, and my close friends back in LA and one in Baltimore in the meantime. My little brother because our age gap is 11 years apart, he feels less like a sibling and more like a son. I am the third parent because I had to look after him during some days and some nights while my parents out working so he didn’t hurt himself at home. In the past, I didn’t want a little brother. I had spent most of my life as an only child and he changed the family dynamic. My parents were more busy, sleepy, and stressed because of him. I never asked for another sibling because I was fine being an only child but my parents had other plans. When we came to the US, I often avoided being around him because I found him annoying and I was a growing edgelord with a shit ton of mental issues (still am). It wasn’t till I was 18 when I matured more and started taking on more responsibility of looking after him and being a good role model. Another reason, I care about him is because I want to guide him into being successful and not be some fuck-up like I am. I will have to talk about others some other time.
2) Self-improvement: I love improving more than anything else especially in terms of my physical looks and my social skills because those two were the main things I lacked when I was a kid and teenager. It always brings me great joy to improve in those things because it means I am transforming into a better version of myself that never existed.
3) Fun: I need things to be fun. The main issue with this is that it’s always changing based on how I am feeling and can be even random sometimes. We could be getting the dogshit smokes out of us but I could be finding it fun because we are all doing it as a group. I could be playing a video game but I don’t find it fun but I am still playing it because I already played halfway through it and I just want to get it over with.
4) Peace: Sometimes, I just love those small moments of peace I get. It could be me waiting a few minutes at a bus stop, catching my breath while staring at the road down ahead, and just thinking about life. It could be a small break outside the office and home and just sitting down on the stairs and looking up at the sky watching the clouds or stars swim by.
5) Honesty: I like being able to express how I feel and who I am as a person. The less filters I have with someone, the more I trust them and the happier I feel around them. I don’t have to put up this fake personality to appease them when I can be just who I am BG. I also love when people open up to me, it’s a really good bonding experience and I often give them a hug in return.
