Six

6. When was the last time you lost your temper, and why did it happen? (03/04/2023)

The last time I lost my temper was this Monday February 27th. That was the day I was told I had to make a presentation on how to do paperwork for awards and I had to prepare for the (SOM) soldier of the month. I had to read a document line by line on instructions, learn how the process works, and create a presentation explaining to everyone else assuming that I understand it. Being picked for SOM pissed me off because I have to memorize some army regulations, standards, and go in front of some high ranking officials to answer their questions.

I am personally not getting anything out of it and somebody from my platoon had to do it so I am the sacrificial lamb for this scenario. I was a total bitch the whole day. I practically gave little to no fuck about going above or beyond on my job. I did my job and went back to my office to focus on being angry.

I was cursing a lot too and my attitude was cocky as well. In my room I kicked the wall, bed, and lockers for some catharsis along with some loud swearing to release my anger. It didn’t work because I remained fairly angry throughout the whole day. Luckily, I didn’t harm anyone physically or emotionally and after getting a good night’s sleep, my anger dissipated. I did an emotional reset through sleep and I started working on those new tasks with some occasional complaints. I had gotten over denial and anger and was now in acceptance with some attitude.