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70 What qualities do you value in others? Do they apply to you as well? (04/30/2023)

Non-judgmental and non-bullshitters.

I love people who are open to new ideas and listen before making assumptions about others. I can't stand people who brag constantly about how they are better than everyone else. I love people who are humble.
As for myself, somewhat. I rarely speak so I am always listening whether it's me listening to another person talking to me, group conversations, or just me eavesdropping into other people's talks uninvited. As people are talking, while I do form my own judgements about them, I don't say them out aloud. I don't like hurting other people and judging them makes it harder for them to open up.
I can't stand bullshitters. I find people who constantly brag to be very annoying. They constantly talk highly of themselves and talk down on others. They are narcissists. They lie a lot about themselves positively. For example, guys often lie about their height, or their income to make themselves seem better than they actually are. As a result, it makes others less likely to talk because they feel embarrassed since they see themselves as inferior to the fake image the narcissists created. If there is a bullshitter near me and he/she starts talking lies, I will call them out on their bullshit. I just want to have genuine conversations and bullshitters prevent that from happening.
People who don't judge and don't bullshit. Most people fit this category because most people are extreme narcissists nor assholes. I do have low standards for a lot of things. All the people I look up to and care about have those two values whether its my close friends, older sister, and younger brother.
As for myself, I do fit that category too. However, in the past I didn't. As a kid, I used to be an overconfident brat that constantly like to brag. I liked to brag about being good in my studies and in sports despite only being good in math and barely exercising. I had an inflated ego and would often lie if people challenged my statements. That ego got crushed when I got bullied in 7th grade.
I used to be very judgemental too. This was one of the bad things I copied from my parents. In my family and my relatives, gossip gets around fast, everyone is comparing with each other, and whoever is trying to do something different is often judged and criticized. For example, when I first met my older cousin for the first time in 8 years, I called him a bad person because he smoked. Looking back, I was the bad person for judging him immediately without hearing his side of the story. He started smoking in middle school to lose weight and to fit in with the other guys. After years of smoking everyday, it's almost impossible to give up due to the withdrawal effects. He already knows the harm he is doing to himself and he doesn't need some ignorant brat judging him as well. Plus, smoking doesn't necessarily make you a bad person. Harming others makes you one. We all deal with life's bullshit in our own way and as long as you are not hurting others, I am fine with it. My older sister, Ela Didi, mentored me for some years before I stopped being a overly-judgmental piece of shit.