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22 Would it be better to live forever or die tomorrow? And why? (03/20/2023)

Die tomorrow. Right now it is 0626 so I have approximately 17 and a half hours left to live. I wouldn't want to live forever because eventually everyone I love and everything in this world will end except for me who is unable to die. I will be forced to watch everything I care about disappear in front of me and I will be alone in this world both physically and emotionally because nobody else will suffer the same fate as I did.

With the 17.5 hours I have left, I will spend the first two hours planning a list of priorities to finish before I die. No.1 would be to create a guideline on how to be an overall more social person and some important stories about myself that I have yet to tell my younger brother. I might create a word document or pdf and email it to his gmail.
2) I would call my sister and talk for a few hours so about life and what's to be expected for the future.
3) Then I would call my best friends and come clean about the type of person including my own shame and my own dark thoughts that I hide often.
4) Then I would call my parents and tell the truth about how I felt the past 22 years and what I expect of them when raising Biggyn
5) I might ask out a girl I like to see if she is free to spend my last night on Earth and I will try my best to have no filter at all and talk whatever comes into my mind.
6) Then I would take a walk outside at night and admire the stars right before I fall asleep at midnight and succumb to an eternal sleep.