Dream and Night with Tia
Written 09/26/2023
On the morning of 09/20/2023 Wednesday, I had a wet dream. In the dream, I was in a hallway in front of a closed door. I pick up an origami of a swan and I am suddenly reminded that this type of origami is a warning to not go any further. However, I put it down and opened the door ahead. When I open the door, the character Trevor from GTA 5 starts chasing me with a chainsaw. I start running away and cross into another building across a large wooden tree log. I jump into the window and into another hallway. I find an M4A1 and I pick it up. Trevor jumps into the hallway after me. I shoot him but it has no effect so I bust into one of the rooms. There are three gang members inside and they try to attack me with knives. In fear, I point the gun at them and they back off. I jump outside the window and slide down the small gap between the two buildings using the M4A1 to take the bulk of the friction. I reach the floor and run into the road. I enter a parked car and start driving. It is small and all of a sudden I am in Santa Monica Beach. Out of nowhere, the car has a hood and a woman only in lingerie who is tied up is in the back seat standing through the hood. I keep driving and I reach a ramp. The car flies through and falls into a net hole. The woman breaks free from the ropes. For some reason, I found that hot, and I busted. I woke up right as I busted and it was one of the biggest loads I ever nutted into my underwear. I had to wash my underwear and bed sheets after that.
The same day, I ended up eating Panda Express with Tia. We went to get Panda Express and it was his first time getting it. he smoked weed outside for a bit to relax. On our walk home, he was ranting to me about his classmate who told him to stop wasting water even though he was just using it to wash his hands. he felt bad for venting and he put his arm around mine while walking home. he is also into old pre-90s cars. he also complimented strangers on their outfits. Right before we entered our housing, he told me that he had something important to say. he talked about how at one point he spent 2 hours deciding between choosing to buy duct tape or not to buy duct tape. he ended up not buying it because it seemed like a luxury item. We then went up to our room. I put the light into RGB mode and we watched Cody and Ko: Energy O’s on Youtube and it was one of the funniest videos I have ever seen. After watching that, I asked him why did he tell me about the duct tape. he talked about how he struggles with indecisiveness and growing up poor as a kid. I told him about not feeling enough and my past suicide attempt. I leaned on his shoulder while his arm was around me. During that moment, I felt content. After that, he went to his room to sleep. After that, I thought to myself, I really like this person. 2 reasons. Almost everything I do in my life is due to my desire to improve myself and prove that I can be better than others. Skydiving, traveling, gym, I only do it so I can look cooler compared to other people. However, there are a few things that are immune to this and I cherish them. My best friends, my brother, my sister, and being with you. I have social paranoia because I was betrayed in my life before by my former friends. I don’t trust people and I refuse to open up. When I am around you, I don’t feel that.
